Smuggling Grace

The days of the COVID pandemic simultaneously feel like ages ago and like they just happened. I don’t know if you feel the same way, but it was such a pivotal event.

I remember its great difficulties, collectively and personally. And at the same time, I have had no problem moving on from it because I was beyond ready for all those doors to open again and for all those rhythms to resume or start anew.

Earlier this week, I was reading The Good List, a weekly article by Melissa Kirsch of The New York Times. It comes out every Wednesday, and she lists five wonderful things she has encountered. It might be a community experience, a phrase someone said, a festival, or something quirky.

This week, right at the top, she was talking about dinner parties. She remembered how often we told ourselves — and how deeply we meant it — that once the pandemic was over, we would never take for granted spending time with people. Whether it was one loved one sitting next to us, gathering at a restaurant, or, as she mentions, attending a dinner party, we knew how precious those opportunities were.

And I have to admit, I haven’t thought about that in a while.

Of course, I had those thoughts regularly during the pandemic, too. And I don’t think I take my relationships for granted. But there are times when I can be nose to the grindstone about work, spending the bulk of my day, even beyond the workday, thinking about projects and emails.

I want to renew that commitment. I want to stop taking these opportunities for granted. I’d rather prioritize them. I’d rather have more of them.

Do you resonate with this?

—Renee Roederer

Lately, I’ve been reminded that some of the most valuable learning takes place not only within our own discipline, set of skills, or sphere of activity, but just outside it.

This week, I had an opportunity to convene a group of professionals whose expertise extends beyond what I’ve studied, and I learned so much. I invited a group of therapists to gather virtually for a case consultation. I had never participated in something like this before, but I’ve worked alongside my colleagues to create the Seizure Smart Mental Health Professional Network, a referral network of mental health professionals we’ve trained about epilepsy, functional seizures, and associated mental health conditions. This was the first time we brought some of these tremendous leaders together for this kind of gathering.

Case consultations are familiar to mental health professionals, but they were new to me. They provide an opportunity for therapists to share a case involving one of their clients, removing identifying details, describing the interventions they’ve tried, and inviting their colleagues to offer questions, comments, and suggestions.

I learned so much just by watching this unfold. There was so much wisdom in the room.

One of my favorite things about my job is that our team members aren’t therapists, physicians, attorneys, or social workers, but we get to learn a little bit about all of those fields and more.

And you don’t have to work in a particular profession to stretch yourself in some of those adjacent directions. Sometimes the best learning happens in spaces where you already know a little because the work is resonant with your own, but you have the opportunity to enter more deeply and learn from people who practice with greater expertise or experience.

I’m also a firm believer that we need each other’s questions. Sometimes, when we enter these adjacent spaces or communities, we discover new questions that can enrich our daily lives or the work we do.

And so I’m curious where that might be for you: Where is there some overlap between your own life rhythms and someone else’s? Or between your discipline and another community? How might we stretch ourselves in those directions?

There’s a great deal of wisdom right next door.

—Renee Roederer

Whatever it may be, here’s a reminder.

One of my mentors was a voracious reader of Carl Jung. Once, he told me something Jung had written about dreams: If we wake up from a dream laughing, we are likely releasing or healing something, letting it go. A shift is happening within us.

I suppose the same thing can be true about our waking hours. I was with another mentor recently when I told him something I had never shared with him before. Years ago, this was something I struggled with mightily. And in most circumstances, I think he would have responded with great sympathy and care.

But when I told the story, now that something had been transformed inside me, I told it with so much laughter. And he followed suit. I loved it. Sometimes we are healing and releasing something hard with a belly laugh.

Of course, it’s also true that we can laugh too soon as a coping mechanism. But when we’ve done the work and can add humor to our sharing or storytelling, I think that is a very freeing thing.

Have you had this experience before? Or perhaps lately?

Do you want to laugh — not at it, but within it?

—Renee Roederer

Over the next six weeks, I am helping to lead a weekly church service for a congregation that is currently searching for a pastoral leader. It’s lovely to be with them. They are so kind. And I like spending a little time sojourning with people so that I get to know them more closely and we get to journey with each other.

This congregation is currently holding a coat drive. It’s a small effort, though they do a lot in the wider community. Members of the congregation are collecting coats that the church will donate to people who need them.

Every day, we receive painful notifications about fresh horrors and corruption in the world. We live with so much uncertainty. And in the midst of it all, it’s easy to think that our gifts are nearly insignificant.

But they’re not.

These coats will go to people with names. People who need them. People who want them. We may not even know their names in the end. In fact, we probably won’t.

But doesn’t this matter, too?

We have food in our pantries. We walk down the grocery aisle that contains toilet paper. We could pick some up. We are alsoable to pick up the phone and call a friend. These things can seem so small when we offer them to others, whether we’re donating items or giving our time. But they go somewhere. They change things.

There are people with names connecting with people with names. It’s always specific.

So what do you have that you can share?

This congregation nudged me in that direction without them even knowing. I’ll be dropping off some food at the food pantry today.

Sometimes it’s a contagion of giving.

—Renee Roederer

–Photos by Renee Roederer

I learned something new. Thought you might as well. 🙂

I sat at a table surrounded by a variety of delicious scents that could represent both breakfast and lunch. I was there with two of my colleagues as we enjoyed food from a Coney Island-style diner and connected before holding a planning retreat later that day. Very naturally, without any prompting, our conversation moved toward our origin stories — meaning how we came to join our work team and do the work we do.

Of the people around the table, I had been with the organization the longest, so I already knew how all three of us had come to this workplace. But you can tell an accurate story of external events, and it’s still not the full story. The three of us shared what we were thinking internally, what we were processing at the time, the questions we were asking ourselves about our lives, and what we were dreaming about — including what gave us a sense of energy or even a sense of calling.

It was so lovely to share those stories with one another. And even though I work with these people daily and know them very well, I still learned new pieces of their stories, and I shared things they had not heard from me.

It’s interesting that it’s rare to know fully when we are in an origin story.

Maybe some pieces of our lives are moving or changing. Maybe we’re going through a transition. Maybe we’re asking a question we’ve never asked before. Maybe we see a need in the community or in ourselves, and we know there is a gap that needs to be addressed.

Whatever it is, we might be in this kind of experience right now.

All of our daily internal movements are significant. They’re always leading us somewhere.

What if we’re in an origin story right now?

—Renee Roederer

It’s time for my annual Jacob Collier post.

Multi-instrumentalist, creative, and kind musician Jacob Collier is someone I greatly admire. His musical skills amaze me, but in addition — or maybe all the more — I love the ways he brings people together, and I love the values he shares. He just seems very alive, and that inspires my own sense of aliveness.

I try to make sure I see him in concert once a year. There’s no one else I do that for. But over these last few years, one of my very favorite things has been treating people to tickets to come alongside me and experience these concerts, too.

Jacob Collier’s live concerts are unlike any other context I’ve ever been in. They are a masterclass in collective effervescence — that feeling of awe and magic that can come over a crowd of people when they feel like they’re part of something bigger than themselves.

He gets everyone participating in the music and creating it alongside him. He’s highly improvisational and full of energy, and quite simply, there is no Jacob Collier concert without the audience. The people gathered aren’t simply watching the experience. They’re helping create it.

I’ve loved bringing friends alongside me so they can experience this, too. And it makes me think that when we know something special, there’s something touching and meaningful and even intimate about bringing other people to that gift.

Sometimes we have the opportunity to point not only to something or someone we love, but to an experience, and then widen that experience by inviting other people to add themselves to it.

That’s what it’s been like to take my friends to these concerts.

So what about you? What invigorates you? Have you shared your joy with anyone else? Have you invited someone into it?

—Renee Roederer

Forget the title of this video, please. 🙂 When asked, “What’s the most mind blowing thing you can tell me that’s true?” Neil deGrasse Tyson talks about the universe inside us.