The Tablespoon

Image Description: A tablespoon of soil. Yellow wildflowers are in the background.

This morning, I’d love to link you to this piece by Ben Johnston-Krase, entitled,

The Tablespoon

“But you know what people are asking? Am I alive? Beyond the striving, the earning, the hammering away… In the midst of a life that feels rushed, disconnected, overscheduled… am I – are we – really alive? I believe people are asking those questions, maybe now more than ever.”

The Ring

Image Description: A photo of the the ring from the Lord of the Rings films. Public domain.

Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.

Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world, Frodo, besides the will of evil.

*Thanks to my friend, Patrick, for sharing this quote with me.

The 4th

Image Description: Tea light candles lined up with a dark background. Public domain image.


I don’t feel free.

And

There are many people far less free than me.

And

There are people who are feel like they’re “winning,” who may find themselves less free at the drop of a hat because they helped rig the system to “win.”

And

All of this feels heavy.
Let’s just give that space.

And also,

The way to this is through this.

And also,

The way to independence is through interdependence.

And also,

The way to living is through loving.

Renee Roederer

What Does Your Nervous System Need Today?

Image Description: A human body with the brain and nerves visible. Public Domain.


A Hug?
A Nap?
A Walk?
A Run?
A Dance Session?
Shaking Things Off For a Moment? (Literally)
Hearing the Voice of Someone You Love?
Noticing Beauty in Nature?
A Comforting Meal?
Settling Into a Good Memory?
Anticipating a Fun Trip You’ve Planned?
Shutting Off The News?
Playing a Game with Children?
Knowing You’re Enough and Worth it?

Renee Roederer

I Do Not Have a Box

I do not have a box, a category, or a mental file folder in which to put

POTUS lunges dangerously at a secret service agent, and then attempts to take the wheel of the car so he can arrive at the armed insurrection he himself has just incited.

That is uncharted territory. I don’t know how to store it or digest it.

I only know I am deeply troubled by it.

Renee Roederer

We Have Today

Image description: A sunrise. Public domain.

I heard the “Rocket Man” lyric, and I felt a sudden wave of various emotions. “Oh, I think it’s gonna be a long, long time…” As my Spotify app continued to shuffle my songs, this lyric stood out to me. If there’s anything I know how to do, it’s wait.

I know how to actively wait. (More about that in a moment). Testimony: I can think of so many chapters of my life when I kept living a day by day life, while also pondering the bigger picture and waiting for the on-the-ground conditions to change — within communities, within situations, within conflicts, within circumstances, within pandemic lockdowns, within eras of time.

And I’ve lived to see things change meaningfully, sometimes in remarkable, unexpected ways. I can point to a number of stories like that.

As I said, I know how to actively wait. This isn’t passive.

I know how to live well in the day I’m in, continuing not only to hope for change, but to move it in that direction actively, even in small, but still significant ways — not as an individual only, but within a nexus of relationships. I know that this adds up too. It takes time, and yes, I do grow tired of active waiting.

And it’s crucial to remember too, that people get hurt in difficult conditions, and this is worth grieving, and raging. And they are worth protecting.

I realize that living well in the day I’m in is a *skill.* I was thinking about this on the way home yesterday. This is a skill that’s been developed in me. Maybe in you too? Not without feeling. Not looking away. Not shrugging. But also, when we’re not actively grieving and raging (valid), we are truly protecting, and living, building the world we want to see, and whenever possible, not letting people or situations-at-hand steal our joy.

So here we are. And here this is. And we should feel our feelings, not looking away, and not shrugging.

And we also have this day. We have this very day.

Renee Roederer