Scared, Middle of the Morning Thoughts

I am trying not to panic, but I, too, am so scared right now.

We’re not wrong for feeling vulnerable. We’re not wrong that the most vulnerable among us are made remarkably more vulnerable.

And in grief, I am missing people tonight who I wish I could call and talk to about this.

I am not prepared to lose even the nominal amount of justice and order we have in a country that is already frequently unjust to vulnerable people. I don’t think I am prepared for that level of grief and chaos. I am scared of where we’re going. I’m scared of how much people are willing to give over.

All of that is true.

And

I will also say this:

So much is uncertain, but what I will not lose is loving my community. What I will not lose is loving you.

— Renee Roederer