Smuggling Grace

I’m a new symphony orchestra season subscription holder. Over the years, I’ve seen the Ann Arbor Symphony Orchestra in concert several times, and I’ve performed with them even more times. My local choir partners with them annually to perform major works. But I’d never been a subscriber until this year.

Truth be told, I became a subscriber this season because it gave me first dibs on Jacob Collier tickets. Jacob Collier, my favorite artist who I greatly admire, and Chris Thile, who I also enjoy, are performing with the Ann Arbor Symphony Orchestra next month. I bought two tickets in the 4th row (hooray!).

The opening concert for their season took place this weekend, and the music was tremendous. Every piece moved me, and several will stay with me for a long time. But today I want to reflect not just on the music, but on the power of a welcome.

Before the concert began, Jon Beebe, Board President of the Ann Arbor Symphony Orchestra, greeted the audience. Toward the beginning of his address, he asked us to turn to the people on our left and right and say, “I’m glad you’re here.”

It was such a small gesture, but I think it shaped the whole atmosphere of the evening. Of course, we came for the music — but this invitation made the evening feel like a collective experience. During intermission, I got to know both of my neighbors by name and learned a bit about their interests. After the concert, I noticed people connecting with those behind us too, well beyond those seated directly beside us. The night felt accessible and communal.

We face many daunting problems in our society, and it’s easy to feel powerless to impact them or shift them. But we shouldn’t underestimate the effect of small nods of belonging and bids to connect. They impact us physically and emotionally. And alongside the joy of the arts, they are a public good in themselves — a social benefit, and a public health benefit.

Whether we say it aloud or show it through hospitality and care, “I’m glad you’re here” is the beginning of something we need. Small gestures like that can shift entire rooms and ripple outward into whole communities.

— Renee Roederer

— Photos by Renee Roederer

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I was talking to one of my work colleagues about how wide the range of temperatures has been lately. The mornings are brisk, while the afternoons turn pleasantly warm — sometimes even hot. “If you love fall, there’s something for you, and if you love summer, there’s something for you. There’s something for everybody,” we said.

Culturally, it feels like fall. Programs have begun anew. School is back in session. College football is on Saturdays. But technically, it’s still summer until September 22. If you know me, I’m trying to savor every part of my favorite season.

In a lot of ways, we’re in an in-between time. On a recent bike ride, I saw many trees just like that — in-between. Most trees are still photosynthesizing, but here and there, bright colors are revealed as the green begins to fade. This is a liminal time.

And maybe we feel in-between, too. Is any part of you… liminal?

—Renee Roederer

A therapist colleague said something wise during a mindfulness event we hosted together:

“As we’re moving toward autumn, if you’re going through changes, just know that nature goes with you.”

I thought that was a beautiful image, so I’m sharing it here too.

—Renee Roederer

“What does depth require from us, from me?” Sitting with this question and quote today from adrienne maree brown in Emergent Strategy: Shaping Change, Changing Worlds.

“If love were the central practice of a new generation of organizers and spiritual leaders, it would have a massive impact on what was considered organizing. If the goal was the increase the love, rather than winning or dominating a constant opponent, I think we could actually imagine liberation from constant oppression. We would suddenly be seeing everything we do, everyone we meet, not through the tactical eyes of war, but through the eyes of love. We would see that there’s no such thing as a blank canvas, an empty land or a new idea — but everywhere there is complex, ancient, fertile ground of potential.

“We would organize with the perspective that there is wisdom and experience and amazing story in the communities we love, and instead of starting up new ideas/organizations all the time, we would want to listen, support, collaborate, merge, and grow through fusion, not competition.

“We would understand that the strength of our movement is in the strength of our relationships, which could only be measured by our depth. Scaling up would mean going deeper, being more vulnerable and more empathetic.”

“What does depth require from us, from me?”
-adrienne maree brown, Emergent Strategy, page 10

There’s a moment before healing begins when all you can do is name the thing. Not fix it, not dress it up—just name it.

Sometimes, that’s the hardest part. Because when we name the grief, the loss, or the fear, we make it real. But we also take away its shadowy power. We begin to see it for what it is, and in that seeing, we create room for something new.

Whatever you’re facing, I hope you have the courage to name it. That’s where healing begins.

— Renee Roederer

You Are Valuable.

It’s that simple.
It’s that profound.

It is Truer than True.
You have worth that cannot be diminished.

No matter
any of the words that have stung in the past,

No matter
any of the dismissals people have thrown your way,

No matter
any of the failings that keep you up at night,

No matter
any of the items left unchecked on your to-do list,

No matter
any of the unkind comments said to your own reflection,

No matter
any of the the stigma people associate with the diagnosis,

No matter
any of the “gaps” on your resume,

No matter
any of the things pundits have said about you,

No matter
any of the fears you carry inside your living cells.

No matter
anything
anything
anything.

You are valuable.
Full stop.

With a love that can’t be lost.
With a life that can be lived.

—Renee Roederer

And now for something completely different, but still nature. This week, I MET A REINDEER!

— Photos by Renee Roederer

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