Smuggling Grace

— Photos by Renee Roederer

This American Life

I’m kind of over winter.

And this is really bad because, astronomically speaking, it hasn’t even started yet.

Right now, I’m in my defiance phase. I go through this every year when the cold weather sets in. At first, I called it my denial phase, but that’s not quite right. I fully acknowledge it’s cold. I know the temperature will slap me in the face the moment I step outside. But I still refuse to wear a coat.

Why? Honestly, I don’t want to. I don’t want to bundle up. Maybe it’s my way of resisting the season itself—like I’m refusing to fully surrender to winter’s demands.

Of course, this changes nothing except my own comfort. And yet, I persist. I tell myself it’s because I’m only walking to the car or popping into the grocery store. The walks are short, I say. No need for all that effort. What a thoroughly Midwestern excuse.

But here’s the kicker: my fellow Midwesterners? They’ve succumbed. And it’s to their benefit. They’ve embraced their coats, their scarves, their gloves. Meanwhile, I’m still out here in my little rebellion, shivering on principle.

Why do I insist on having this winter defiance phase every year? I don’t know. But I do know it won’t last. Eventually, I’ll pull out my coat like a sensible person, zip it up, and brave the season the way I’m meant to.

Until then, I’ll keep marching through this odd ritual of resistance.

What about you? Do you have any little rebellions like this? A defiance phase of your own? Let me know. I’d love to hear it.

— Renee Roederer

Here are some organizations in my area that are serving immigrants and refugees.

Jewish Family Services of Washtenaw County

Michigan Immigrant Rights Center (MIRC)

Southwest Detroit Immigrant and Refugee Center

Washtenaw Interfaith Coalition for Immigrant Rights (WICIR)

Washtenaw Congregational Sanctuary of ICPJ

Would you consider finding some near you, creating a list, and sharing their websites with others so that people can donate, join their newsletters, or volunteer?

I’d like to share a poem called “A Blessing for the Creative Soul” by Sue Heatherington. It is included in her book Quiet Disrupters: Creating Change Without Shouting.

What is it that you can do uniquely?

Have a read:
https://quietdisruptors.com/a-blessing-for-the-creative-soul/

What is trauma bonding?

This language below comes from Google’s AI Overview:

Trauma bonding refers to a strong emotional attachment that develops between a victim and their abuser, often characterized by a cycle of abuse interspersed with moments of kindness, leading to a sense of loyalty and dependence on the abuser despite the harmful nature of the relationship.

Key points about trauma bonding:

• Cycle of abuse:The abuser utilizes a pattern of alternating abusive behavior with brief periods of positive treatment, creating a confusing and addictive dynamic for the victim. 
• Fear and manipulation:The victim may feel fear, intimidation, and manipulation from the abuser, contributing to the bond. 
• Isolation:Abusers often isolate their victims from friends and family, further strengthening the dependence on them. 
• False hope:The victim may cling to the hope that the abuser will change and return to the positive moments, preventing them from leaving the relationship. 

Where trauma bonding can occur:

Romantic relationships: This is the most commonly discussed scenario, where a partner is abusive towards the other. 

Family dynamics: Children can experience trauma bonding with abusive parents. 

Cult situations: Individuals within a controlling cult may develop a trauma bond with the leader. 
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Trauma bonding is a hallmark impact of narcissistic abuse. If you or loved ones are experiencing these kinds of dynamics, there are forms of help and healing. And those harmed are worth all the love and care they can receive.

Here’s a great video from Christina, a coach at @commonego on YouTube. She demonstrates how trauma bonding functions like an addiction, and how such a bond tends to form over time.

— Photos by Renee Roederer

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damnselfly

quick protip: if someone is crying or freaking out over something minor, eg wifi not connecting, can’t find their hat, people talking too loud, do NOT tell them how small or petty the problem is to make it better. they know. they would probably love to calm down. you are doing the furthest possible thing from helping. people don’t have to earn expressions of feelings.

shoren18

I’m just gonna put it out there that if someone’s freaking about something small, they’re really freaking out about something big that they’re trying to deal with, or something long term that’s been building up, and that little thing is the straw that broke the camel’s back.

I don’t know, try and give people the benefit of the doubt. Don’t be the next straw on their broken back.

jdkaplonski

Needed this today.

animate-mush

People don’t actually go from 0 to 60. If you think they did, you have failed to notice how long they’ve been at 59.