Do you know what gives you joy?
Whatever it is, or whomever or however, can you access it? Can you lean into it? Can you laugh in its presence? Can you rest in it? Can you marvel about it?
What is it? Can you recall it right now?
Sometimes, I find that helpful. And sometimes, we’re fortunate when joy just shows up, and rather than practicing recall, we can simply receive it.
What a gift that is.
Today I will be honest about something:
For a whole year now, I have been living and carrying three different, big stressors. Whew. And in the midst of these, a fourth keeps emerging too: Too often, I don’t sleep enough. I am writing this at 3am. (But don’t worry, writing this will help me sleep rather than take more away. I’m also going to sleep in).
In the midst of all of this, I also marvel sometimes… because side by side with these big challenges, the last twelve months have also revealed so much joy. Beautiful connections, wonderful hopes, and an ongoing sense of knowing and choosing the very forms of calling that seem to be choosing me.
What a lovely paradox that is. No need to downplay the stressors here — they’re challenging — but also… (how wonderful to say, “but also…”) they are accompanied by joy too. And I feel fortunate to know that. And sometimes, these gifts come as a wonderful surprise as well.
Here are some lovely, poetic words from Mary Oliver:
If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy, don’t hesitate. Give in to it. There are plenty of lives and whole towns destroyed or about to be. We are not wise, and not very often kind. And much can never be redeemed. Still life has some possibility left. Perhaps this is its way of fighting back, that sometimes something happened better than all the riches or power in the world. It could be anything, but very likely you notice it in the instant when love begins. Anyway, that’s often the case. Anyway, whatever it is, don’t be afraid of its plenty. Joy is not made to be a crumb. (Don’t Hesitate)
I wonder, which ongoing stories in our lives need this posture from us?
(Also, don’t hesitate to go back to bed. Doing that now….)