Probable

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I’m not a catastrophizer. I don’t expect or believe that doom or danger is around every corner, or even one big corner. I don’t believe that harm is inevitable or that we are powerless. I say these things, both because that’s true to who and how I am (and want to be) and also because I’m going to talk about something difficult today. It’s okay to skip this one if this is challenging topic for you.

With increasing regularity, I wonder if the United States is not long for this world as a nation, at least, in its present form. And without losing our minds in fear (if possible) I think we need to make some preparations in the direction of this possibility.

Why do I believe this is possible?

– We’ve already had an armed insurrection.

– We have people putting themselves in state electoral positions so they can be “a watchdog for voter fraud” — i.e. throw out votes or overturn an election outright.

– We have a Supreme Court, far out of step with the majority of the American public that is not only giving nods to rolling back additional rights, but taking up a case in the next cycle that will determine whether state legislatures can set their own election rules for federal elections without any limits from their state constitutions or state courts. Amidst these outcomes, legislatures could set up their rules so that they do not have to follow the popular vote in their states — rules outright to that effect, or perhaps a set of rules that will lead to that outcome inevitably in a systematically rigged way. The Supreme Court will release their ruling on this in the summer of 2023, one year from now and one year before the 2024 election.

– Militias with white supremacist ideology are training for armed combat. This may be the last thing in my list, but it is among the most dangerous. This is not alarmism. This is happening. It’s happening in my state, in fact. It is happening in a number of places around the country. Two of the groups most active in the January 6 insurrection were the Proud Boys and the Oath Keepers. They are still organizing. Others are likely doing the same. We need to know about these two groups and others.

About all of these things, I want to share an article I read last week in The Washington Post: ‘They Are Preparing for War’: An expert on civil wars discusses where political extremists are taking this country.

How do I think we need to prepare?

I think about this regularly, though without falling into it headlong or immersing myself in it constantly. (More about that in a moment). I don’t have a list here in the same way I made one above. But I think we need to have plans for these: What would you want to do, and how, if 1) an election were overturned outright, or 2) an insurgency suddenly emerged?

And then here is where I’m really going with all of this:

How would you want to care for yourself, your loved ones, and your neighbors in those situations? What would that look like?

And

How can we start enacting those forms of care right now? Not only so we’re prepared, but so we have the best chance possible to turn this around and avoid these worst outcomes?

We have to enact care. We have to listen to one another and make sure that physical, emotional, social, and psychosocial needs are met. We can do this right now. It matters. We are not powerless. Apart from anything our government does or does not do, we can turn toward one another and take care of each other.

And that’s where my subject line comes from — Probable. It’s not my word for likely disaster. It’s my word for the fact that I think my community members would care for each other and me. It’s a word for the fact that we are fully capable of enacting that. And it’s my word for the realization that we can participate in connecting people with one another so that they have places to land with help.

I think about all of this regularly. As I shared, I’m not falling into it headlong or immersing myself in it constantly. I still enjoy my life. I find things to delight in. I share community space with others. I’m even sleeping well at night. And as someone who used to have chronic insomnia years ago, this is a big deal.

But I think we need to prepare. I think this is real, and I think we need to prepare.

That’s why I write this.

–Renee Roederer

On That Level

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On one level, we have no idea what we’re doing.
None of us does.
We don’t know fully what will happen.
We don’t know fully what we want.
We don’t know fully who we are.

But on another level, we do know what we’re doing.
We can craft much of what will happen.
We can craft much of what we want.
We can craft much of who we are.

Or to put it another way, we might quote Mary Oliver,
“You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.”

“You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.”

–Renee Roederer

Both of these quotes come from Mary Oliver’s poem, Wild Geese.

The Seeds

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All of the things that sustain us and comfort us in times of challenge started out as small actions,

— go to an event, only to meet someone who will become a life long friend,
— introduce two people, only for them to initiate a major project together later,
— have a conversation, only for it to shift your direction,
— step into that identity/role a little more, only to discover there’s a whole community waiting for you.

And so much more.

And if so much of this can happen unintentionally, what could be possible if we act on these kinds of things intentionally?

Plant tiny seeds today and in the near future that will surprise us with sustenance and comfort months and years down the line.

–Renee Roederer

The Tablespoon

Image Description: A tablespoon of soil. Yellow wildflowers are in the background.

This morning, I’d love to link you to this piece by Ben Johnston-Krase, entitled,

The Tablespoon

“But you know what people are asking? Am I alive? Beyond the striving, the earning, the hammering away… In the midst of a life that feels rushed, disconnected, overscheduled… am I – are we – really alive? I believe people are asking those questions, maybe now more than ever.”

The Ring

Image Description: A photo of the the ring from the Lord of the Rings films. Public domain.

Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.

Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world, Frodo, besides the will of evil.

*Thanks to my friend, Patrick, for sharing this quote with me.

The 4th

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I don’t feel free.

And

There are many people far less free than me.

And

There are people who are feel like they’re “winning,” who may find themselves less free at the drop of a hat because they helped rig the system to “win.”

And

All of this feels heavy.
Let’s just give that space.

And also,

The way to this is through this.

And also,

The way to independence is through interdependence.

And also,

The way to living is through loving.

–Renee Roederer